Is It Crazy or Are You?

It's crazy to fear one person when you've never been afraid of anything in your life. But perhaps it isn't the person you fear, but the way you feel about that person. Because feelings are dangerous. They cause us to do crazy things sometimes. You finally sit down one day and question yourself what it is that you could possibly fear. Is it the feelings or the unknown places your feelings could take you? I suppose it could be either one, but it is usually the unknown that we fear the most. For there is no known fact of whether things will work out or not. You have to stand up and take a leap of faith. You have to choose to trust your feelings and the person you feel those things for, that they won't end up breaking your heart. So what will you do? Will you choose to take that leap of faith into the unknown, while holding their hand? Or will you go back to living life, wondering what could have been? Personally, the person I once was would have gone on living life, only wondering what could have been. But I have learned some things since then. I have seen and felt things. Life is too short to live inside a bubble or in caution twenty-four seven. It is precious, time is precious, and you should share that time you have with others and live life while it is yours to live. So take that chance. Stand up, hold their hand, and take a leap of faith out into the unknown. Live while you can.

Crossroads

Have you ever come to a point in your life where you have to choose or make a decision? It may not be a major life alternating one or maybe it is. But my point is, how do you choose which path to take or what choice to make? Do you flip a coin? Maybe it's a fifty-fifty shot. You're not sure yourself, but maybe letting fate or luck decide for you instead. Luck can be tricky though. Is it only good? Luck can tip the scale to be either good or bad. It is unpredictable, especially when giving the chance to make a decision for you. How would you choose?

Give Music A Chance

Ever have times when a song just can't seem to escape your mind? Or maybe it's you that can't escape the song. Does the song ever have a reason or purpose for being there? Maybe it's just there. Not to help figure anything out, but to give you a pick-me up when you seem to having an off or down day. Songs or music in fact, is a great gift to us. But music is more than just a gift. It is a way of being, breathing, and living life. Music is more than what it seems. When it comes down to it, music can save you when nothing or no one else can. Music holds the power that some men cannot even wield themselves. "Do not judge, lest ye be judged." It is the same principle for music. Don't judge someones choice of music until you try to understand what exactly it is they may see in it. Your view or opinion of a song will not always be the same as the next person who hears it. Give Music a Chance.

The Truth and Nothing but the Truth

There are times, quiet times like tonight when you want so badly to pick up the phone. To pick the phone up, open your messages, and start a new one. After you get the message typed tho, there is a second/moment of doubt in your mind. Then slowly you hit delete. You delete each letter, each word, and eventually the entire message. You close your messages and your phone. Then all those unanswered questions hit you suddenly with such strong force. You breathe slowly and remember that they are not worth it. If any person truly cared for someone or anyone for that matter, they would have the want or need to talk to you. To know you're not just "okay", but that you are happy with your life in life. They would show they cared in other words.

Close to the Edge

I feel so close to the edge. It's only a step away. A shuffle of my feet, and I will fall. I'm so close, but something keeps pulling me back. I don't know what to call this something. Maybe it has no name, but it is there for a reason or purpose. I have grown closer to the edge over this past year. Things, people, emotion, etc., it all pushes me a little bit more. Bit by bit, I am pushed closer to the edge. But can I really give up? And if I do, what will that prove? Nothing. It will just prove that I wanted to give in, and it will let them all believe what they thought in the first place. That I'm not strong enough to live and to survive. But they are wrong. I AM strong enough to SURVIVE. I AM strong enough to LIVE. I will prove them wrong. I will not only survive, but I will live. I will do what is best for me from now on. I have given this thought, and have come to the decision that it is right. This is what I need. I need to do something for myself. Even if it means disappointed them in the end. Even if it means hurting them in the end. I will find a way for us all to live in peace. For us all to get want we need and want. It will happen. I will see this thru. I will not stay this close to the edge anymore.

I Miss Who You Were..

I hate missing you. It's like a part of me that is uncontrollable. But the fact it, I don't miss who you are now. I miss the person you were. Before you started letting things get to you and change you for the worse. Before people effected you more than usual. You were one of the few people who I could talk to and who in return you could talk to too. What happened to make me lose you? What happened to you that was so terrible? You think you had it rough, but you were the golden boy. The child who could do no wrong, but did it all wrong. You screwed up again and again, but they still all took you back with opening arms. They loved you. I loved you. But what can I say now, that I hate you? I don't hate you. I hate what you have become.

Remember the Good Times

      When you lose someone it's never easy. As humans, we tend to get our minds stuck on what we have lost or feelings of loss. You realize you won't ever get them back, but instead of staying on that thought...think instead of the times you had together. The laughs, the crazy rides, random hugs, and how much they meant or mean to you. Never forget. They gave you some great times that are worth remembering. So instead of trashing those memories with hateful thoughts or words, remember them with a smile on your face and love in your heart. Because we all live, but we should never live with regrets. Now again, I realize this is my own "personal opinion", but then again, who doesn't have one of those. Go live and love every part of life. Even when parts of life try to bring you down. Remember the Good Times.

It Will Come Back to You

          Less than a day to go now. I look back and realize that even though my life has not been long, I have learned a lot. Being strong doesn't mean you can't cry. Being human doesn't mean you are invincible. It means you are prone to make mistakes. And love, well love is never a sure thing. But that doesn't mean you shouldn't love when given the chance.

       "Whatever you give to life, it gives you back. Do not hate anybody. The hatred which comes out from you will someday comeback to you. Love others. And Love will comeback to you." ~ Quote on Picture

Love Thy Neighbor as You Should Love Yourself

         I wonder if we ever find what we all want out of life. Of course we try to find what we need, but what about the things we want? The things we secretly crave, desire, and dream for. Those are the ones worth asking and searching for. They may be the reasons we try so hard day after day. Because we slowly are getting closer to reaching for the things we want. I wish I knew what I wanted out of life, but I never gave myself time to think on it. I always wanted things and gave them to others. I was more worried about others' happiness than my own. But now I realize that although it is a noble thing to do, it is not the way to live your life. Your life should not be about others all the time. You have to give yourself time. Because you cannot love or be loved until you truly love yourself. I wish I had all the answers to everything in life. But, I don't and never will. So instead, we continue living, doing the best we can. Because in the end, that's all that counts. You tried, you lived, and maybe you even loved. ♥